Archive for October 2008
constant cycle.
i realized today that i’m constantly trying to find things to hate myself. really, i honestly think why i have ethical dilemmas while the rest of the students can focus on just doing well and maintaining relationships. i’d rather sit in front of a computer and think about the terrible things i’ve done today…
“you totally didn’t talk to the first years at your table during lunchtime…”
“your hair looks like a bush, get a haircut.”
“you’re so slow at working.”
i think these put downs signify two things: poor self esteem and self obsession…
…wait, there i go again, dissing myself!
